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Okay, I needed to update my journal, though I really don't have much to say. I'm kinda in a bad situation right now, and I am losing all sense of direction, but it's cool. It'll pass. I think. So, I'm just going to write about what's happening and stuff I need to do so I can stay focused.

Well, let's start off with something happy. I beat one of my videogames! Jeanne D'Arc for PSP. It's about frickin' time too. It wasn't that bad until the last level, then I was like WTF?! But when I bought my new DragonForce CD, it inspired me to play the game even though I had shunned it for months, and I got lucky. Crazy guitar solos can help me kick ass even though it's safe to say I'm incompetent at all video games except the Sims. It's sad, this is only the the third or fourth game I've ever beaten by myself XD

Next: I MUST UPDATE THIS PAGE. No lie, I've been working on a picture that I had planned to have up here back in May (FAIL.) It's just not coming out how I want it so rather than put up crap I would eventually take down, I'm going to spend some extra time on it. It's one of those pictures that must be perfect.

Then we have Phrentis, the band. Laura is in Florida until the end of this month, so we were without vocals or rhythm guitar last practice. I wanted to cry. That and I really effed up "Reptilia", even though I've been killing myself to get it sounding awesome (and I did have it at some point). However, I just didn't bring it that night. Fortunately, "Come Together" sounded pretty tight. I would've have crushed myself with my heavy-ass amp if I butchered a Beatles song.

I have a problem though: I'm finding it hard to get into the songs were playing, I can't feel them. Which is weird, I love every one of the songs we are doing. It's just, I can't seem to get loose and have fun playing them. Kerry says it's because I'm nervous that I'm going to screw up and when I do screw up I get embarrassed. I think she's right. That sounds like good ol' anxious, zero-confidence, inferiority complex Becca (or "Bangsie McGee" as Sean started calling me ever since my last haircut). But I told her I'll work on it. I will. I'll never be a good musician if I can't chill. And I'm bringing down the band with my tension.

Other news: Mo the Stick Punk, my comic, is FINALLY gaining momentum. Chapter 1 is nearly completed, I've just completed the story and dialogue for Chapter 2, and I've already begun sketching out a preview page for the new chapter. Problem is, I can't get into full swing on Chapter 2 because Chapter 1 is still being uploaded (don't ask, it's just me being OCD). The rest of the Chapter will be up very soon, so please, if you haven't already, visit the page! The link is below.

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